Recalling the days you’ve cried alone in the dark !
Slowly that became a routine.
Sadness being a part of you, pillows inflamed into a tear absorbent.
That smiling face faded into a passive aggressive emotionless mold.
You’ve finally started talking and finding life in small materialised forms around you.
Why is it soo difficult to step out of things which thrashed you down ?
Which later kills your soul, makes you weep in silence, Aspects of living that Drains your energy and makes you feel worthless.
May it be love, profession , behaviours , wealth, attachments or simple act of caring for others .
After all relationships break! Work collapses ! People fade and slowly move away,
Gratitude is just a word and priority is another noun.
you’re being taken for granted,physically emotionally and socially being used and you’re exhausted in and out.
But still you haven’t thought of changing yourself you’re still a good egg in this uncertain and fastly evolving world.
It took so many years to understand
The most happiest person is soo badly broken inside
And everyone has a melancholic story which they never narrated..
If life is a mirror people in it are farer than they appear ,
Scars are deeper than it seem to be,
Reality is Cruel than we imagine,
Time is shorter than we predict,
World is smaller than the groups fighting for it,
Mood swings are only inside your head,
Misery is also an emotion,
And happiness is just an optical illusion.
For atleast once you should be your priority,
And experience the feel of being prioritised atleast by yourself.
That feeling is addictive,
May be with time you might even love it.
May be that is when you’ll understand everything comes only after you,
May be that’s maturity,
Atleast then you’ll decide to change yourself,
Not to adapt to changes or your society, but just to make sure you aren’t hurt and broken as much you’re now.
Please that’s an humble request ,
Value your own existence,
because you’re important,
And only you can set yourself right.
A note to self
Your reckless consciousness.